I know that if he hasn’t texted by the end of a week then he isn’t going to. I also know that I look desperate and a little pathetic if I message and ask what’s up or see if they’re going out to the pub this weekend. I try not to do that anymore.
Having a crush on someone and they have no intention of asking you out, only ever talk when convenient, is fucking horrible. It means convincing my heart to flick the switch and stop feeling anything for that person. Kill it. Slap that little flutter down. Put my heart in lockdown and shoot anything that tries to escape.
If a guy wanted to see me then he would make the effort.
I have other things to worry about in my life than to sit and wish and hope and pray that he will finally realise that... Oh fuck it. Even thinking about it makes me want to vomit. Please don’t let me be one of those girls.
I like a guy. He has shown no interest. End of story.
Now I should get back to my assignment for uni. Copy editing here I come.