Abigail liked reality, she did, except for one aspect. Unfortunately for her Disney had fucked her up so much that for a long time she believed in the whole fairytale love. For years she waited for it.
Her friends always had dates and partners. They fell in love easily.
Then it dawned on Abigail. True love was a lie and fate a bitch.
The boys in her life were always flawed; they lacked the physique she found attractive, they spoke English like it was a second language, were easily unsettled if ignored and had questionable hygiene.
Most of all they were repulsed by her.
So she fell in love with fictional characters and crushed on the actors, or on musicians, or artists... anyone unknown. The biggest mistake was stalking, then the idea of them died and their flaws all that she could focus upon.
She lived in reality... but dated in fantasy.
When she was eighteen she had a crush on Rob Mills. He was gorgeous, talented, funny. A year later, while watching a repeat of Spicks and Specks, this image was shattered. He had had a very publicly known tryst with Paris Hilton. He liked tall blondes.
Though it was a fantasy, knowing that had destroyed all of her hope.
And that’s what a fantasy is built upon; the hope that one day you’ll meet, they would find you attractive and whisk you away instead of the size zero famous model.
Hope was of course, another lie.
So to be honest I'm not sure what to write for this blog anymore. I use to think that no-one was really reading this and so I'd just put up any crazy notion that passed through my head (look through the archives for examples), however some people have been telling me that they have been reading all of this stuff... yep... no pressure right?
Do I keep adding short stories? Reviews about anime? Commentaries about life?
I'm feeling very unsure, do I even care if what I write is appropriate or that some people might recognise the true events that may have been fictionalised? (very few of those exist).
Nope, scrap all of that. This little panic attack is pointless because you guys know as well as I do, I will never change. All we can hope for is that you enjoy this and are not too offended.
Anyway let's get back to the writing, I'm two chapters from finishing the latest novella (I think I might need a new hobby, this is the third novella for the year, that or I need to go on dates and fall in love inappropriately) and next month as I am house sitting (yes a very grown up thing to do, how will I survive?) I will be plotting the conclusion for Blair's trilogy and maybe catching up on my reading. You might then be seeing some very panicked posts about the problems of living alone with granny neighbours (I'm down at my grandmother's house while she's on holidays) and having to do my own laundry. This might be good experience for me or it might mean I never want to leave home (sorry dad). We'll see what happens.
See ya later, alligator.
Adults know the rules
placing a step exactly to the plan.
I stumble. Where can I get a guide?
Everyone hurries forward with
work. Family. Responsibility.
Three years a New Adult, I'm
unwed. Childless. Unemployed.
I creep and peek into the grown-up world
emotions under the control
never to betray.
Fear, anger, distaste; repressed.
Love, excitement, joy; leaked
then quickly contained.
I don't want to learn these new rules. Perhaps
its too late
I've traded fizzy for shots already.
But guilty I am,
of cartoons, cereal as dinner and smiling for no reason.
Someone else can take my place
at the grown up table.
Sword Art Online (SAO) and Btoom are two very exciting anime series where the characters must survive a death game. The verdict for both of them is: must watch. They deal with similar issues such as killing, self-esteem and escapism from the real world into a virtual one. The art work is flawless, soundtrack more than suitable for the action and stories filled with emotions we can all share. However, there are huge differences in tone, lovability of characters and general pacing that separates the two.
SAO is the more child friendly story. Kirito and his friends and even his enemy in the fantasy world Aincrad are all lovable with good intentions. The action is clean of blood and gore, there are cute awkward moments (the night Kirito and Asuna spend together and they have different ideas as to what it means) and it has an overall sweet and innocent tone. Now for the however, the story jumps without really showing the nitty gritty progression throughout the game, we see very few boss fights and because of that it feels like this is more of a side story. Maybe the creators were limited on funds and how many episodes they could produce and decided not to show each floor being cleared since that would’ve doubled the amount of episodes. Another thing is how it tries to be in two anime genres. The boys adventure and action is directly aimed for the fans of shonen while the romances and quirky embarrassing moments (Silica is so concerned about what her skirt is covering and Kirito not looking while she is fighting a monster is silly funny) is more shojo. Overall it deserves its PG rating.
Btoom is defiantly not for children and must’ve been created for male adults (the boobs are larger than life). Instead of being inside a virtual world the characters are stranded on an island and must kill each other with bombs. Sakamoto, when we’re first introduced to him comes across as a pathetic creep (22 yr old, unemployed, living at home, plays games all day, is married inside of the game and has a violent temper) but once on the island he is strangely noble and kind of attractive which is jarring to how he is RL. The blood and gore is plenty, so is the betrayal and the rape. Watching this, I felt fear and very dirty because of this; teenage girls are brutally raped (we don’t see it happen but there is the lead up and the after math and the screaming) and there is Sakamoto’s relationship with a fifteen year old that begins to turn sexual. The series is fast pace and obviously not shying away from showing everything and knows exactly who they want as an audience. The rating is iron stomach friendly.
The verdict: SAO is good fun and makes me want to play video games. Btoom is scary and I don’t want to go to the island. I enjoyed both but if you are easily disturbed don’t watch Btoom.