Now, this isn’t going to be some in depth post about cosplay and making out like I’m a rock star at it or a veteran. No. This is me admitting to the fact I have wanted to cosplay in the past but have always, always, always found an excuse.
My big excuses;
Money. To me it’s a little silly to go to all of that effort for a costume you might wear once and then what? Leave it in the closet never to be seen again. And yet, when I have considered doing a cosplay that could pass for civilian clothes, I’ve still outweighed my desire to do it with other excuses.
Fear. What if someone comes up to me and shames me for doing the character wrong? Incorrect footwear. Small bust size. Slightly different colour variation in fabric. Cheap or home-made looking. All pointed out by some stranger who isn’t wearing a cosplay but has a very loud voice.
Events. Or really the lack of them. It’s only recently that I’ve been to my first big convention as a patron. So of course I had nowhere to wear the cosplay before. So why sew?
Complexity. Is it cheating if it’s an easy costume that doesn’t really require a lot of time and effort to make, more pairing up jeans with the appropriate shirt and jacket? Is that still cosplay?
Body confidence. The big one. Am I too fat for this? Will the shirt sit where it’s meant to? Am I showing too much flesh? What if I don’t wear a wig, will my hair colour match that of the character? Is my muffin top showing?
And the minor excuse which isn’t really an excuse but a reason why I never continued on with a cosplay when all of the previous excuses haven’t worked; I just don’t love the character that much. So many great animes are out there. I have fallen in love with several characters at once. But when it comes down to it, some are not the everlasting love. Yeah, I want to but nah, not that character. I like them but no, I don’t want to be them.
Somehow, I actually did my first cosplay, Mila from Yuri on Ice. Yeah, it wasn’t a huge success (no-one recognised her) but it was fun and there is something about Mila that I just relate to her that I like. Did I mention it was fun? Which is the reason I want to do more cosplays and muck about in them as the character, and meet more cosplayers, and attend more conventions around the country (and maybe around the world).
Now I want to do it again, I have the excuses popping up.
Cost. Ha! I can budget for it and always rip it apart and turn it into something different. That dress could be down-sized to a skirt, easy.
Fear. Screw them! Thus far, no-one has pointed out flaws (actually, hardly anyone spoke to me at the convention when I was dressed up other than actual cosplayers and it was more of a bonding moment). If they want to try and shame me, then the sarcastic bitch is coming out and taking them down. Try me, douch-muffin.
Events. I want to go to more. Just need to pick them and throw my money at them.
Complexity. I was over thinking it. Not to mention it doesn’t matter when you’re not entering the competitions. In fact, I am considering making a little summer dress that could be done in a weekend and pass as civilian clothes. Nothing complex. The most expensive thing will be the big wig I’ll have to acquire.
Body confidence. Well, this one isn’t an easy fix. Yeah, it’s a mindset and being able to love myself for who I am and how I look is easier some days than others. Though, I must remember that I’ll never be the perfect replica of an anime character because they’re NOT REAL. I am real, my body fluctuates in weight and size, I have pimples, freckles, and I suck at putting on make-up or styling my hair. I might be working out more regularly and toning up, but that doesn’t mean I hate my body and want it to change to that of a 2D person. No, I just want to be happy and confident in how I look and how I feel.
The more I contemplate and interact with those in the world of cosplay the more I see that my excuses and worries are not unusual. I have wasted so many years of not going to conventions and not slipping into another persona. Time to get to work. Did I mention it’s fun?