And that’s making me nervous/excited/weirded out.
When I first booked my table I wanted time to fly so I could just do it. Then as I was getting things ready, I wanted it to be later, there was no way I was going to get everything prepared (I still don’t know what I’m going to wear, I have no cosplay outfits) and it was too soon.
Funny how time feels different for everybody’s situation.
When you want it to rush by, it crawls. And vice versa.
But that’s not true because time is continuous, always the same, just perceived differently. Time is the passing of seconds that are exactly the same length and form a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a year, hundreds of years, thousands… until time is no more.
How we fill this time, will be how we spend our lives.
Do we do it by working a soul sucking job to pay bills and dream of another reality?
Do we settle down and produce children whose tantrums and homework fill the space?
Do we travel far and see the world?
Sunday I did something weird. I was curious to see how I spent my day. Was I lazy around the house? Did I achieve great writing feats? Am I ready for the next month?
I wrote down every activity and the time that I did it. And I did achieve more things than I would normally on a Sunday. I was more mindful of how I was filling my time. My room is neat and tidy, I finished editing a manuscript for a friend (which was an amazing piece), and I have this sense of calmness which feels a little out of place.
The thing I noticed most about recording my time, I felt like I had to be doing something, there was pressure to be productive. But it wasn’t that crazy pressure that you resent and hate, it was gentle and encouraging. I know it sounds crazy, but I liked it.
Writing things down has more power than simply saying them or thinking it. Having a physical document to be referred to or shared or added, give the words more meaning, which in turn give the actions more purpose. Words are powerful.
Am I happy with how I am spending my life? Maybe I need more data to give a conclusive answer, I need to see how I fill my days. Perhaps I will track my time for a month. Not to say that having a lazy day around the house is a bad thing, it can be great for not feeling so frazzled every once in a while.
This is like writing down goals; seeing how you spend your time is good to see if you’re doing what is needed to achieve those goals and live the life you want, not waste your time.
So I challenge everyone to record a day or two and see how you’re living your life. Are you happy with how you’re filling time?