No, this interest has not been influenced by anyone. My reasoning happens to be rather selfish; getting myself out of a rut, doing something different and exciting and challenging, pushing myself to the absolute limit and getting out of my home town. So no, it isn't in response to another human being.
I'm being very cryptic about all of this, I know. I just haven't told my parents that I am considering it again and I haven't mentioned it to the Grunt in Green (his response will most likely be the most interesting) so I don't want to say until those most important and affected are told.
Anyway, there is a possible I won't meet the requirements.
Though, nothing ventured nothing gained. I won't know for sure unless I apply.
God, I feel like I'm going to throw up, just the thought of doing something like filling in a form on-line is making me so nervous. This will alter my life completely. Not just in location, but mentally, emotionally, socially, physically and everything else in-between. Is it a good idea? Or should I be happy with what I have now and accept this is as good as it gets?