I can't seem to explain why either. I don't know if it's because my characters have ventured into territory I have no experience in and so I feel false for writing about it, maybe it's because I have been working on this for so long (six months a hell of a lot longer than my usual one month maximum for a manuscript) and I need to clean my palate, or maybe it's because I really need my own Jai.
I am admitting it here and now; I need a boyfriend. A casual thing won't work for me, it takes to much time and effort training one guy to do what I want in the bedroom, having more than one or having the one with training going off with another woman, nightmare!
Blah, I must be over analysing this.
Anyway, six months and I am a little itchy under the skin with Jai and Cecelia. Being someone with no experience with living with a boyfriend (having barely making it past meeting the parents before they bail, damn emotionally unavailable bastards) I am struggling to figure out what happens behind closed doors. It's just like sex scenes; I have never had good sex. Awesome flirting and heart pounding for play, which I can write in great detail and with a lot of excitement for my subject... sex however, I don't know if any of you have noticed how I seem to cut away before the action happens. That is the reason, no personal experience to call upon.
Maybe this week will be different and Cecelia will surprise me when I go home to write. Maybe something absolutely amazing will happen and I will find a way not to feel the itch to do something different. Maybe.
Looking for inspiration from my original muse... don't you dare judge me.